Still looking for a job. Wow, this economy is so lousy. It has never taken me this long to find employment. But I am getting by (thanks to a very supportive family). I do have an interview today with Mr. Nice Guy's company. How crazy is that? I may end up working for the same company as him! He and I are still dating; he even gave me a pretty bracelet for Christmas. But I felt guilty: A) Because I couldn't afford to get him anything and B) because I don't have such strong feelings for him. I really like him, but as a friend. I have been honest with him about the fact that I am not ready for anything serious. I do have a connection with him, but I crave that magic, that spark, that "I can't go a day without talking to you" feeling. And the sex, well, lets just say it isn't magical.
I did have some magical sex over the holidays though. I met up with an old college friend that I hadn't seen in over 15 years! We hit it off just like old times. We were "friends with benefits" in college and he was one of my firsts. So it was wild when we ended up wrapped in eachother's arms at the end of the night, once again after so many years. And, wow, it was hot... hotter than I remembered. We were just kids back then. I was 19 and he was 21. And now, well, we aren't kids anymore. Don't know if we will get together again. Maybe it wasn't as good for him as it was for me. But after all these years, I would still be up for more fun with him. I know it probably won't go anywhere (it fizzled out the first time around), but I welcome some sizzle in my life.
