Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Slightly Smitten


So, we have had over 7 dates (lost count) at this point - me and Mr. Nice Guy. Every date has been fun. Every date he has acted like a gentleman. Every date I have felt good about. I must finally admit to myself that I like him. He is sweet, kind, easy going. I felt in the beginning that maybe I shouldn't continue dating him because he was really taking an obvious liking to me (he gave me flowers; his girl friend said he was really into me, etc.). But I am glad I hung in there. Why did I hang in there? Because I was enjoying every date with him and enjoying his company, mainly as a friend. I thought perhaps he isn't boyfriend material (for one, I am not sure he can afford me - I can be quite a high maintenance girlfriend at times). But he has paid for every date, proving that maybe he understands what I am used to. I am used to being wined and dined after my last boyfriend (and it kind of spoiled me). He could afford to buy me things and take me places, including Europe twice last year, as well as New York and Orlando. And yet I am enjoying the laid back, mellow feeling I get when I am around Mr. Nice Guy. I am completely myself. I don't have to dress up (which I always felt I had to do for said ex-boyfriend), I don't have to be anyone other than myself. I am comfortable with him, just being me. So now, I admit, I like him. Where will it take me? I have no idea. I hope my cumbersome baggage doesn't play a role in this relationship. I hope I can be honest, real and good to him. And I hope he can be with me. He did admit to me that he hasn't "touched anyone else since he was with me". I can't say the same, but he didn't ask. Have I slept with anyone lately? No, but I still have had a couple of nights out where I wasn't quite so pure. Do I want a commitment with him? Absolutely not. I am not ready for that by any means. Do I expect him to be loyal to me only at this point? I wouldn't ask him to be, out of fairness, but I hope he doesn't sleep with anyone else. I guess that is where communication comes into play. Different people have different opinions on what is appropriate when dating. So I suppose in my mind I am committing to not sleeping with anyone else until I see where things are headed with Mr. Nice Guy. And, truth be told, I haven't been interested in dating someone else either.

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